Life is good.

I have decided to post in english as my new laptop doesn't have a Portuguese keyboard.

Life is good. 

If you look from outside through  the window you will see a happy family.

I have been blessed! It's how I feel most days, when I'm not been selfish that is.

How hard is it to stop? The self? The mind?

Most days I wish life would stop (not to end) but stand still. I wish the problems wouldn't flood my mind and I could just appreciate what I have. 

Because life is good! 

But it's not always like that and that is when I start with the selfish thing... basically I stop feeling blessed and a lot of darkness comes to my mind. I look at the mirror and I realise I don't really know the person staring back at me. And I don't like anything about me and I wish to rid myself from everything. 

This scary time could be end of me... I can't stop it.

It last a few hours and I'm happy again. 

I'm laughing again. 

I'm myself again.

Life continues to be good.

...Renata...